Wrong Timing

For the first time in my life I chose my family over my career. Now I have not had too many chances before since we have only been married about 2 ½ years. Last time there was a chance I went for the Account Manager job when we had only been married for 6 months tops. It was a job I always wanted and the opportunity arrived. I had the mentality of you better go for it now or it may never come again. It was not easy on our marriage since I had long hours and traveled while Bob went on the road a lot with the Air Force. Well last week we had an opening in our office which rarely happens since we are so small. About 10 of us work in Dallas compared to over 2,200 in my old corp. office. I thought I better jump on this ASAP. Then I started to realize I will go back to long hours and a little traveling while now having a son. Did I want to go after a new more stressful job and become a first time mommy? Bob now has a flexible job but do I want to be the mom that rarely sees her baby and consumed with work? After many conversations and tears I decided that this was just the wrong timing. If that spots opens up in the future I would jump on it in a heart beat but right now I need to make sure I get this mommy thing under control first.

On top of all that I have been working crazy hours with two doctor appointments this week. Along with doing the leg work and interviewing for the temp that will assist while I am on leave. Bob and I are heading to the doctor for an ultrasound at 2:00 pm CT. We are looking forward to seeing little Matthew today and hopefully he maintained or increased his percent tile in weight. I am gaining a lot so I hope the weight is being transferred to him. We will let you know what the doctor says after the visit and baby Bob will take another belly shot for all you fans.