18 Days Old

The picture is about a week ago.  Matthew is 18 days old and he has changed a lot in this short amount of time.  He can smell me a mile away and cry for me to hold him.  He is an eating machine and luckily we have breast feeding down.  He gained 10 oz since being born.  We have our good days and bad days on sleeping through the night.  Last two days we have gone back to me not getting sleep unless I let him sleep in my arms.  I cannot really sleep since I am constantly worried about sleeping in this position.  Bob relives me as much as possible but he has to work so I try not to bug him too much.  Last night was one of the worst since our cat Cali got sick as well.  She threw up in two spots and popped in two places.  So I got to walk into vomit and poop while trying to calm Matthew.  Not fun at all.  

Right now my challenge is getting myself ready.  It is hard to do it when there was little sleep and you are afraid you are not safe enough to drive.  I have only left the house once by myself and that was since we both had doctor appointments last Thursday.  That was a challenge but we made it work.

Even without sleep I love motherhood.  Looking at my son and holding him makes me melt every time.  I figure sleep will come in time but our love is now and forever.

Baby Matthew has arrived

Sorry I have not written sooner but I just got home from the hospital on Monday afternoon.  Baby Matthew knew that 4/9 was his due date since I started contractions at 4 pm or earlier on 4/8.  I was like oh no my parents flight does not get in until 6:40 pm . . . Well they were not too close so we got them and went to dinner.  I have never been in so much pain through one of my favorite meals.  We got home and I was trying to go to sleep since I did not want to jump the gun and have the hospital turn me away.  Well at 11 pm I was having them about 3 minutes a part and Bob took us to the hospital.  My contractions slowed down but they kept me since they planned to induce in 8 hours.  Basically I did not start pushing until noon.  Two hours of hard core pushing and he was stuck.  They rushed me in for a c-section.   Matthew was born at 2:53 pm and weighed in at 7 lbs 1 oz and 20.5 inches.He is a very healthy boy and was ready to leave the hospital before me.  :)  I am feeling better c-section wise with pain meds but right now I am learning to run on four or less hours of sleep.  It is worth it since I cannot express the joy of becoming a mommy. Matthew looks more like daddy but he got my chin. :)  His hair is kind of medium brown but the eye lashes and brows are blonde . . . 

PS this was written with one hand and the other holding my baby boy.  Also on 4 hours of sleep so please forgive any typos.

April 9th

Today is 4/8 and it is my first day on maternity leave.  Woohoo.  One day of leave before Matthew Thomas is born.   It was very challenging working up to the last minute and trying to get everything done.  I think the hardest aspect was I was not just going on leave but not coming back to that role.  I was promoted on 4/1 to an Account Manager.  Thus, I needed to make sure that things I do where easily accessible and understandable for a new person to handle.  They are going to interview my replacement while I am out.  We have a temp right now which I had to partially train while I was trying to close out.  Funny thing is today I slept until 8:30 and that felt like such a treasure.  The past month even on the weekends I have been going into work to get things handled.  I joke that all the work and lack of sleep is preparing me for Matthew.  I sure hope that he will be the baby that likes to sleep during the night . . .  He is active in my tummy at night hence me wishing really hard that is not an omen.  Here is a picture from last weekend.  I will try to post some new pics once I am back at home and have a moment.